Masterless and Rage

And what do you do when walls close in and you are on your own two feet? No wings, no helping hand, no one to fight by your side?

I guess that is how it has always been. You should know. You were the only that truly lifted all of you. You were the only one that really knew what it was to fight. To keep things afloat. Everyone else had different motives, opinions, and a sense of pride. Everyone built walls, you kept breaking yours down. 

I'm rebuilding some.

As you should. You fought so hard and in the end, nothing came of it. Nothing but a clear perspective that this lifetime isn't fruitful. This lifetime is just a mere apportion of what is to come next time. 

I would it could be different.

How can it be different? One has never truly accepted the definition of you. The other is so volatile and built walls despite how much she cares. The other has motives and a sense of pride beyond repair; one can't even apologize at the fact that it's a lot on him and the mess of his failures to protect your definition is at hand. He is the blight. He is the true symbol of corruption. A person who believes he has no fault and sits on his throne and pries himself into a lifetime that isn't his, that is a true stigmata of a person who has a motive beyond what he sells himself to be. Or maybe he is just an ignorant hero. One who has never felt true loss and sits here and tries to relate and be.

Everyone has felt the loss.

Yes, but not everyone has felt truly 'lost'. Not everyone KNOWS how to drown in sorrow and angst and come back to the surface. His purpose is questionable. And his failure to even apologize and even stand down his pride because he feels he has some kind of worth.... well... if he is reading this and is just merely saying all the things he usually says to refute his fault... trying to know things when he doesn't... well he's a fucking idiot and I hope he suffers in this lifetime and the next. Karma is a bitch.

You have so much malice that you can't even keep it in the parameters of 'the fiction that we live'?

I don't have malice. I have regrets. And I regret knowing these people. For giving you definition. 

My definition led to so much fruitful things for you.

Yeah, it did. But it also brought in some bad seeds that is corrupting the one thing I am holding some worth in this lifetime that is lost. I will rebuild and I will hack down the weeds.

And if she protects the poison as you call it?

Then my absence for your definition has led her to be desperate for a company. It's a shame that the company she kept is a person who is the definition of fallacy. Even he believes he is being honest when he speaks his words. If that is the case, then she will be lost as well and this lifetime is mine to live alone.