.:Masterless and Rage:.

"Because of Scrutiny," I speak with a very sullen tone; but I do hold back on a lot of the true feelings behind it. "The passage has become partially one of the most infamous one. Because of yours and MY scrutiny."

"It is how I found the truth."

"I'm well aware." The truth. Is innocence still a bliss? If I ask her this now she'd probably say yes, after all she is far more of a testament of someone that regrets. "Redundant scrutiny as I have mentioned before though."

"Don't admonish me for being the one to confront the ugly truth," How can I truly admonish her anyway? "It was withheld."

"It was. For a duration that probably we will never find out because you have delved it out into the open air."

"Yes. And that's when…"

"Don't start." I make sure I am very eloquent with that last phrase. She knows exactly where this would lead to. "Here's a resolution. Why don't we not go that route at all anymore?"

"And what? Continue to mock what we have found as if?"

"Fresh start remember? Catharsis?"

"And everyone is so easy to just take the second step when I am constantly ambivalent about my first."

"Do not dare insinuate that I do not understand," She should know me better by now which is why my tone ascended into the decibel that it did. "Remember, out of all of them, you and I are probably that knows damnation and failures. You …. and I know what it's like to hit the bottom of the fathomless depths of failure. So I'm not going to sit here and tell you that you don't deserve the best because hell, I know you do. But I'm also NOT going to sit here and tell you that the route you often take is the best resolution."

"You …. you speak as if you forgot rage…"

"No. I've never forgotten rage. Rage is constantly boiling in me… the difference is that… Solace is easier to find in the nonfiction that I truly reside. I am not governed by this and perhaps one day, it will be the undoing of the symbiotic relationship you have with this world."

"…. it's a lot of work… Why don't you just cut it off now?"

I chuckle at her statement. If it was that easy…. hm. It is that easy. I'm just as obstinate as she is though.

"Because I refuse to believe that you worked so hard for nothing. I won't let you dissolve like that."