Masterless: Remember the rage. Let it fester. Don't let it go. Remember it always for it will be the driving force of what will give you a definition for the next. Do not squander your purpose into the meaningless and empty promises of 'a better tomorrow'. Do not falter when someone offers their hand. Remember the pain. Feel the wounds inflicted on you by the very people that said they'll be there for you.
Remember the one who was supposed to guide you. The one who gave you life and held you. The one who was supposed to be there to teach you things that life can't teach on its own. Remember her betrayal, her lack of guidance, and her inability to cast her pride aside even just for a moment to give you her ears.
Remember your peers and how they mocked you. Do not let the memories of their cruelty slip pass your train of thought. Recall how they encumbered you with words of how much better they are. Do not forget that they always told you that you failed.
Remember the words given by blood on how you won't amount to anything. Do not let that lesson be for naught. They spent years abusing you, breaking your strength, and diminishing your confidence until you grew up with barely any. They are unkind and you cannot let that be forgiven.
Remember the one who vowed to you. The promises she made of how eternity would be yours. Always remember, drown, and suffer for what she has done. The fact that she couldn't fight for you, the fact that she is willing to walk away after everything, the painful thought that it all could have been rectified had she just tried to fix things with you. Do not let yourself believe again because what she offered, what she told you, what she promised, and how she said she loved you was just a fallacy... like the meaning of love itself. Always keep in your mind that while you struggled to find a meaning for yourself, she found another and moved on when you were trying. Another testament that only you are the one who tries... everyone else just gives false vows.
Remember the other who said the same word. Shared the same feelings. Remember how she moved on, how she forgot, and when you came back with nothing, she was unwilling to set aside her morals just to take pity while you bleed. She couldn't listen, didn't want to listen, didn't believe in you, nor wanted to. She made you look like a fool because she was so enthused with the idea of heroism. She made you look like a fool and has the audacity to tell you she loves you when she dares not lift a finger to fight for you. She might have suffered in your debacle, but faced with the same situation, she did the same thing--unable to let go for the sake of 'old times'. Allowing heroism to dismantle, ridicule, and spit at your worth while she turns her back and shrugs her shoulders.
Remember the hero and how he promised he'd fight with you. How he said he'd be the last when he himself walked away when you were suffering; he made his own salvation while you suffered and he smirked and laughed, and while you crawled, he sat there and challenged your ideals, your meaning, and continues to give false notions. Demanding change and playing the victim when he gives none in return to make things better. Let the events of his pride forever haunt you this lifetime.
Remember the one who gave you promises but constantly failed. The one who did it all for her second life and merely forgot you. Remember her pride, her inability to listen. her constant need to stumble and feel bad. You've given her a lot only to receive very little. She is but a fragment of the meaning but do not forget what lesson she taught.
Remember the individuals who continue to run about saying this and saying that, spewing out sentiments that they have your best interest at heart when in truth, they are guided by their own self-motivation. Remember their false guidance, their inability to tell the truth, and their lack of honor.
Remember everything. Remember all your life. When that is done, if you are able to hold on to the grief, the malice, and channel the rage, next life time, you will be you.
You will not wait for karma... you are going to be karma. You will be their distraught, their penance, and you will be the cold winds that will forever haunt them, remind them, and diminish their spirit. You will take everything, cripple foundations, and when they fall, you give them enough willpower to stand back up only to take it away... let them bleed. Let them remember. Let them feel how inadequate and incompetent they are when EVERYONE they thought should be there isn't there. Let them pay for their sins. Let them remember the meaning of despair.
Be the black wings that will carry them to their doom.
Let them remember that for what they have done, they will pay the ultimate price.
Remember. In those far away times, you will be harbinger of vengeance. As they make believe in a better tomorrow, you will reap the benefits of their past debacles.
You are the villain. Don't forget.
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