Darkness and Light pt. IV

Distance has become a prominent thing between you and I. What has become of something that was once just you and me? Oh, I have myself to blame for that huh? What once was became a past tense because I ..... searched outside the boundaries of what was already... something zestful.

I lost you... and I feel as if I lost something incredibly important to this essence of 'us'. But the road still connects us; there might be a few walls between but we are still walking down the same path, in more ways than one. We are still somewhat 'us', I suppose. I chose my path and so have you but sometimes there is that need to take a gander at what was and what could have been.

Sometimes I still don't know what I'm going to do... because I'm still crazy about you.

Where we were....

"Darkness and Light pt. III"

"...My Light in the Dark..."

(Current date: 3/20/15)

We have another year to add to our tally mark, don't we? It's amazing what years and years puts up. I know the latest hasn't been our most prominent of years. We haven't seen each other as much. We haven't really communicated the way we used to... there were often times when I thought that perhaps "this" was just ... another brick in the wall. Or maybe I should just say, another wall just to pass by and gawk at for a few and then eventually crumbles and fall.

But.

Here we are still. And here we will always be. I can't take back all the things that has come and has gone. I can't make you feel better for the times you have felt all the things you shouldn't have felt. But as always, I can be a light in the dark for you. I can always be that friend when you need that shoulder to lean on.

Always. =)

To more of "us", my friend. So that this year we can add another to our lengthy friendship. 7=)

"Darkness and Light pt. II"

"…My Light in the Dark…"

Years. That's what we've had isn't it? Years. Memories. Pain. Suffering. I'm not going to sit here and truly say that it is not by my hand that this side of you is full of pain and suffering. I don't know if I will ever have it in me to face you without that certain shame… I was something that became less than the light in the dark that you proclaim me to be. In your darkest hours, I became vengeful. In your weakest moments, I became hungrier. In the time that you needed a shoulder, I screamed confessions of anger and rage.

But you came almost every night with a smile. With your joviality; with your spirit… always willing and always ready.

You have always told me that the future is ours to mold and the time we aren't give we make use of for as long as we can… I guess it's time to be that light again. It's time to stop being the darkness. Walk with me friend to the next stage of our friendship. I promise you that tomorrow will be better than yesterday. And when tomorrow comes, I'll make sure I have given you the full scope of my gratitude for you deserve it and more.

To a positive pattern then, my Friend. 7=)