.:The Blackest Night:.

11/23 - 11/26 

I said last year was my last... but I was a guest. A much-needed arsenal in a chaotic few days where people lost their damn minds. When nonsensical but fruitful needs to spend money for the sake of tradition takes over....

Why? Why did I do it? 

For some reason, it's part of the 'fun'. To stay busy. To remember that most of what I am thankful for this year is my constant need to continue on despite everything and everyone. 

Well, here's to the 'brightest days', then. 

Blackest Nights ::to:: Brighter Days

The whole time I had no internet on my main hub... for 3 days. Isn't that something? But, another year went by and Black Friday hit me once again. Crazy. Crowd. Obnoxious. Dissaray.

And I am proud to say that it is the Last of that. After a few days, I can honestly say that my time in that world has come to an end.

I can't say that life is going to be easier, but I will say that it has gotten a bit brighter since last year. An opportunity finally came after all my efforts and I took it.

And that is definitely something to be THANKFUL for.

To the Brighter Days then. 

...In the Spirit of...

When certain things keep creeping on your head for reasons that are too obvious. Doubt. Confusion. Ambivalence .... then the solemn need to fight. To Forgive. To move on.

Why is life like this? Why is it I can't seem to find the proper balance and yet life keeps throwing these strange signs? Are signs really as they are? Or are they just mere things I try to pick up as such?

One can't refute the notion that.... certain things are potent.

Well, perhaps Black Friday's end really took a toll on me as it always does. But still... I think there is still that.

Regardless... this battle is mine alone now. 

"…The End(?) Of the Blackest Nights…"

Another Year of it. The weekend where retail goes berserk; well to be more precise, the shoppers are the ones that lose all common sense and cause riot among their fellow people. I can't really fully say that I'm against what they do because for what they do they provide work and funds for me and my own however I do disagree for their lack of common sense.

Well, that's done. At least that portion of it. Now after the blackest nights it should be the brightest days, right?

Last Year my disdain was so much less potent and less incriminating ….. This year… my actions perhaps conformed a nightmare to rise up and take arms.

I'm not sure what is considered the 'Brightest Days'. What is should be me being complacent and such. Well, here comes the new month and the end of the year upon the horizon.

What burdens do I carry over or perhaps what weight do I drop off tomorrow so that I can tread freely amongst the brand new day? 

"The Blackest Day"

I have expressed my gratitude to the people who are close to me. They know their worth in regards to my life, and suffice to say, I hope they know just how Thankful I am to have every one of them in my life.

With that said, I work within the retail environment (wow. Now you know something!) Suffice to say... in a few hours, I will be playing my part in perpetuating this catastrophe known as 'Black Friday'. Insane people. Insane schedule.

Regardless. Toodles!

My posts will probably lack its usual vibrant demeanor because of how lethargic I am going to be.